August 14th of 2019 was the day C'Mira's learning experience would be changed.
School for C'Mira, who goes by the name of Cece, started on August 12th. As soon as she saw her schedule on August 9th she knew something was wrong. It was mainly right there was just one thing that she saw wrong. Instead of AP English Language, it said English 3. That same day that she saw her schedule she went and talked to her counselor. Mrs. Fruge told Cece that she meant to put her in AP English, but there wasn't enough space. So that upcoming Monday that would start Cece's Junior year, she went to her perspective classes. Fourth period had passed and fifth period was coming up. She was dreading it because she just knew it wasn't the right class for her and what she wanted to achieve. She sat in the class just dreading another year of bs textbooks, bs workbooks, and bs essays. Cece texted her counselor and asked if there was any openings yet, but sadly there was not. She went the rest of the day thinking about how her transcripts would look to the colleges she had on her list. After sixth period of her second day of school, she marched straight into her counselor's office and asked her if there was an opening yet, and to her satisfaction and surprise, there was!
Cece got her new schedule and saw that she had Dr. Preston. She had known of Dr. Preston since she was in 8th grade. Cece had an older sister who went to SMHS since she was a freshman and had all the advanced classes. Cerenity and Cece had all of the same types of classes for their respective grades. So before Cece even got Dr. Preston she knew she wanted him because she knew somewhat of how he taught. She went to Dr. Preston's class afraid of the expectations she was putting on herself to uphold the reputation her big sister had made. She loved creating her blog and doing the blog post. Cece also loved going to Dr.P's blog to get the daily schedules and instructions for the day. Most of all Cece loved doing the daily journals. As the semester was advancing, Cece started having trouble focusing and keeping up with the blog post. She didn't have time because she was trying to prove herself to not only the people telling her she had too much on her plate but to herself. She was the type of student who did things to make her transcripts look good. Cece was very smart but gave up easily once things got too hard.
On August 29th, 2019, Cece's great grandmother passed. Cece fell into a depression that presented her with many struggles on top of her struggling to juggle her time management with sports and school. At this point, she fell very far behind. She didn't think she could persevere. Basketball season was approaching and her coaches told her that they knew she could do better than what she was, but that wasn't enough. Her foster mom hounded on her to get her stuff done, and that wasn't enough. Her counselor told her that she might have to go to a JC after high school with the way her grades were looking, and it still wasn't enough. What made Cece see that she was only bull shitting herself was the fact that she had come so far, proven so many people wrong time after time, and made both of her late grandmothers too proud to give up when she was so close. She mentally and emotionally slapped herself in the face and told herself, "It's time to face the facts and get back to reality."
Cece realized that it was not time holding her back but her own mind. Dr. P told the class that they would get a chance to interview for their grades. Thanksgiving break was coming up and she knew that this would give her the chance to properly prepare herself for this interview and get all her work done so she could ask for a good grade and actually deserve it. She would go home after practice over the break and work on her blogs and website instead of goofing off with her siblings and cousins. Cece was so determined to put in the effort for Dr.P's class that she put herself on a schedule that would allow her to diligently and effectively work on not just her AP English work but her AP US History homework as well.
At the beginning of this semester, Cece fell into a space where she played the victim. She tried to keep up with everyone else standards on top of her own. Cece was trying to keep up with everyone around her when in reality she needed to keep up with herself. Cece is now the student who takes responsibility for her actions and takes charge of herself. She is growing as a student, an open-source student, and as a young adult.
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